For me it's that He hears our prayersHe hears our cries and groansThe pain and suffering He seesThe beggingAnd chooses not to answer. That is the most painful thing
I tried to sleep it awayTold myself I wouldn't feel so strongly when I woke upThe following day was betterExcept for the dull ache, I was about over it Then you texted meIt was a subtle gaslightI ignored itI slept Today you texted me againThe gaslighting was no longer subtleI cannot believe I'm going through … Continue reading I tried to sleep it away
Do we ever fully heal? Is it ever going to be okay?Does it really get better? Seems not.
Of rocks and hard places, why do I have to choose? Besides, Where do you get the audacity to call this a choice?
Pray I go to a better place Because I don’t want you to cry when I die Because I have gone to a better place Celebrate my life Pray I go to a better place Because there is nothing left for me on this one The struggle seems unending The joy is fleeting Pray I … Continue reading Pray I go to a better place
I’m here for the chat because it feels like the tables have been turned. Jada publicly unsettled the status quo and we had not seen it coming. What men have done for the longest time and got away with without any trouble has been done by a woman and it is not sitting well the … Continue reading Entanglement: I’m here for the chat
It is still cold, winter is not yet over but my heart is all warm and fuzzy. I took the winter blogging challenge basically as something to do. I wanted topics that could challenge me to think and to write about something else that is not entirely journal entries kind of stuff. I did not have … Continue reading W
It has been long. It has been hard. I am glad I’m done. Blogging is not kids’ play. This may have been worsened by the fact that my schedule kept changing and my to-do list kept growing. I am overwhelmed by the million things that are happening in my life right now I am taking … Continue reading Day 22: Wrap up
Another 30 days!!!! This time I was prepared. Small small SONA did not break me. I hadn’t planned on going back to normal. In-fact, I had planned on taking some time to reset. Not getting another 30 days would have been the blow. Maybe I need to get my mental health checked. Why little changes … Continue reading Day 21: Recycle
I was not meant to be at this tournament. I was lowkey feeling like I cheated my way into being selected. I talk a lot. I argue about everything. I do not back down from a challenge. So when my friend asked me to join the debate club after I had spent 15 minutes arguing … Continue reading Day 20: About a life changing event